Monday, July 18, 2011


I suppose I've become rather neglectful of my blog. Quite honestly I don't think anyone ever reads it anyway. But I figure I should at least update from time to time.

I'm currently doing this from work, it's nice to be able to have Internet access from my job. It's slow enough tonight that I have time to do this. If it were Monday, forget it, Monday's are hell in the credit card business. I don't know if I will be welding for a living again, the economy is brutal and I have really good insurance right now. I also actually have a 401K that MADE MONEY!!!!! It's not a bad place to work, I just don't make as much money as I would welding, and I don't think I'll get anywhere else in the company except where I am right now. I'm not overly fond of the bottom of the food chain. I suppose I shouldn't complain at all as I know there are people out there in much worse situations, then again I don't think it's that bad to aspire for something better in a place I am at 8 hours every day.

I have come to the conclusion that I am getting old. SHOCKER I know! (please note dripping sarcasm) I have had a few times recently where I've been seeing how the world is an adventure for other people (the younger ones :) ) and finding myself a little jealous of having that freedom.

Then I really thought about it one day, yes that "everyday is an adventure" part of my life isn't as prevalent. I don't wonder where I should go this week, and my life revolves around my children and what they have going on and who needs to be shuttled where. That is sort of the other part of my "midlife" crisis, the children have gone off and gotten LIVES!

I'll say more another time - just don't know what all TO say :)


Yankee Librarian said...

I wouldn't worry too much about your life revolving around your kids. I mean, that has got to be a different kind of adventure. Plus.... we all see each other differently. I see you, with a home, stability, family, etc., and think, "It would be nice to have that." (But I don't want the kids). Yet, I can't seem to settle down anywhere. Sure, I stay in one place for several years, but I do little to settle anywhere.

I see it as me not being able to make a decision to stay in one place. Jody sees it as having the luxury to be able to move as I please. I see it as a bad thing, and she sees it as good.

welder_momma said...

I think it's "the grass is always greener" syndrome. I have to say overall I am content with my life, it's just odd sometimes how I miss the freedom I used to have, but at the same time wouldn't trade what I have now either.